A Safe Girl to Love by Casey Plett
Author:Casey Plett
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Arsenal Pulp Press
Not Bleak
Nobody wants to fucking be here except me. I love it here. I could work on that floor for decades and I wouldnât mind. Shelve and talk about books all dayâhonestly, most days that seems okay. I used to have this whole set of dreams, but now, I dunno, so many of those dreams ended up wrong or impossible. After a few years at this store I still like going to work every day, and sometimes I figure, well, isnât getting to say that a good dream enough? Most people here want to leave; everybodyâs looking for a better way up. But me, even this morning, when all my body wanted was to look at the shadows on my ceiling and listen to podcasts with the volume low and curl up in my headachey ball in bed, even then I was kinda jazzed to go to work. I know. Thatâs weird.
You know that kind of hangover when you wake up and youâre shaking a little. Like you get up for water and when you lie back down your heartâs beating like you sprinted three blocks and your skinâs worming around. I always feel so connected with my body in that moment. Itâs so fragile and frail. I feel every part of it. Like when itâs putting barricades up against shutdown is when Iâm least detached from my body, the most aware and tuned I am to its existence, that all my systems are present, intricate, working beneath my skin. Itâs not like I like hangovers. But it is a part I donât mind.
It was still the chilly part of spring, and I put my robe over my pyjamas when I got up. In the living room, the guy we were putting up was still sleeping on the couch. He had broken eyeliner around the side of his faceânot smeared so much as, like, little sections of it had fallen off. Zeke, his name was.
My boyfriend Liam and I are always putting up people he meets on the internet. Like a queer couch surf for kids he knows from forums. Sometimes friends of friends, but generally randoms. Kids kicked out of their evil families, kids just trying out small-town homo life. Sometimes kids just going between coasts since weâre not too far north of the interstate, just up Highway 52. I really love that Liamâs gung-ho about that, though once some girl stole our bathroom sink. That was stupid. Turns out bathroom sinks are worth money, who knew.
Once Iâd showered and shaved, the kid was awake and stretching and looking around. Most people canât fit on our couch, itâs small, but he was pretty short, and beyond that, his body was small, almost unnoticeable. I donât mean that in some stupid ha ha turn sideways and heâd disappear! way; he didnât look malnourished or emaciated. More like inherently unobtrusive.
Do you want tea or coffee or anything, I asked him.
No. Thank you very much though, he said earnestly.
Okay. Well Iâm going to work, but Liam should still be here for a while.
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